i was once very friendly and i made friends easily and fast,i joked with them,yeah,normally they give me laughter and smile in return lar if i didn't insult them directly or indirectly.
i was once very childish and always speak to people without thinking more than twice,yeah it hurts sometime i know,but so what i didn't mean to hurt anyone,my thinking was i was just playing around,why everyone so serious,i liked to make fun of my friends with those rude words(not faulty language lar,just some kind of insulting lor). i felt like why we need to keep something when my friends are doing a big big mistake in front of me,i know my comment don't help but yet those are still words from my heart.
i have changed now,a lot. i don't know whether the changes are good or not, but what i can say is i miss the old me,i miss my old-time friends(secondary school friends),although when we went out gathering we got lesser things to talk but we really understand each other,we already used to everyone's talking styles,we really don't need to care too much when we want to say something,i know it is straight forward,but we like that,we insult people,yes,but it is more to like for entertainment purpose,we play,we laugh,from the bottom of our heart,i believe that no matter how i change,i am still the old me,is just that i have already lost something that is unique in me,part of my characteristic is gone,and yeah i miss them now.
i was once noisy,but now i feel that i am a lot more quiet than the old me.i was once always talking non-stop in the class when i was in the school,so did my friends,we did a lot of rubbish,we wasted a lot of time during my secondary school time but we were happy,and i am not happy right now,after those changes that i don't when they have changed and how.
i know growing mature mean you have to sacrifice some of your personality like childishness and so on.however i don't know whether i am growing mature or not,but if growing mature mean to throw all my unique personalities away,i would rather choose to be childish,since i can't get happiness if i grow mature,no points there.
Friends are to stand together with each other no matter what happen,friends won't don't want to be friend with you just because you did some mistakes,or your attitude problems,but in fact they tell you your problem and go through all that with you.
A friend in need is a true friend indeed.
i was once lonely and yeah i am still lonely now,the thing that haven't change in me.
i am going to be a better person,more hardworking and so on and so on.....
Life still long to go,i know this is only the beginning so i will tell myself to keep it on, and yeah i can do it a lot better than what i am doing right now.
i need to study,i need to be more hardworking,because i can do a lot better if i really put in some effort.
Just as what my mum told me when i was sitting for spm,she told me that she don't care how good is my result if i didn't put in effort,but if i work hard and put in a lot of effort,even my result is not so good,even if i fail,she also will feel happy for me
So study lar,hehe....add oil to myself 1st,must pass anatomy colloq today,at least one.
