recently i just feel like wanted someone to love me, who know me very well and still love me after all,
maybe this is because the loneliness in me....
but still i will make sure i will try my best not to fall in love easily,and not to break up again...
as it is hurting every time when break up in a relationship
i do not want to repeat the same mistakes, i do not want to be hurt or hurt others
therefore, i am trying to be moving on the safe path....and lets the wind bring me to the right way,and reach my destination by fate.
saw this picture....
it's very meaningful..
if you want to love someone or you want someone to love you, the first thing you need to do is love yourself..
so we must learn to understand ourself, appreciate our uniqueness and respect our opinions, and develop a life-long relationship with our own self...which we already kept and hid them long long ago...
we learnt to protect ourselves from outer dangers by hiding our real true self.......but now show them out, and be proud as who you are....because this world has only one you...no ones can replace you...
when we do not love ourselves, what can we expect from others???
no ones love those who do not love themselves
Subway blast: RT presenter caught in mayhem of Moscow metro bombing.
People always realize the importance and remember their love ones only when they are in danger,only when they are pushed to the edge of the no-ending-road...
This often happened to be too late....
So start from this second,love the people around you, love yourself (value your life , love your enemies(they will not longer be your enemies if you or them got into trouble,so appreciate,value them and thanks them for giving you troubles to help you to grow to be a better person, it is also because of fate they become your enemies,therefore we should just accept the fate,accept them and forgive them for our God forgive us for what we did,so we need to do so too..)no ones know what will happen in the next second, do not wait till too late and be regretted, we just do not know when we will not ever have the chance anymore to do so, to love them, to accept them, to forgive them....We must love people in our lives,we must love our self, and also love God..
Love is the greatest gift God gives us, and it is the greatest gift we can give others and ourselves...
So let us start lovinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng
i'm lovin it...
Moscow subway(metro) explosion,in central Lubyanka station at 0756 (0356 GMT). Police said the dead included 14 people inside a train and 11 on the platform.
The second explosion came about 40 minutes later at the Park Kultury station, where 12 people were killed.
Authorities in the Russian capital have declared them "terrorist" incidents.
haiz, Moscow is no longer a safe place to stay.......cause this time,the blasts happened not too far from us already....and it is more dangerous for those who travel around Moscow to go to classes or hospitals......
nothing we can do,may be just to observe the situation more attentively,go out together with a group of people(all these seems like nonsense for the prevention,nothing we can do to avoid the blasts,except stay in the hostels,perhaps..)
Below are the links that talking about the news of the blasts that just happened today morning,at park kulturi and lubyanka which both of this station are on red line.... may be try to avoid to go to this line......it is better to take precaution.....no one knows what will happens so Pray to God for his protection... the worst thing is,i still got 4 years for my study at here,Moscow,Russia,haizzzzzz.... feel sad to those who died,they are totally innocent,except the rumour self-boomer.. if anything happen,please try to solve it with communication and other methods,but not killing,things will not change in the end if we kill to solve problems Life is precious,as everyone of us have only one life,and one chance to live,no ones can take away people chances....
happiness can only be greater when there is sadness,
people will only appreciate and realize the importance of the things they have when they lost them,
same goes to happiness,
and time,like what i posted before,time = life,
but if we waste all our time on sleeping or other unimportant stuffs,which mean will not bring any benefits to others and ourselves,
then time = wasted...
we got only one life,one chance to live,i can not find any reasons why we should not live happily,
yes,it is true that we can not control what will happens on us,
and may be just like a lot people saying,there is the choice there but it is not upon them to make the choice,
i want to be a optimist,for some people say optimists are actually people that living in lies,their beautiful and wonderful lies,
but so what,living in lies can be far better than living in sorrowfulness,if reality is so ''realistic''
continue to be a happy man....hehe....there is always a rainbow after the rain....,do not give up our hopes on the dark cloudy and stormy sky with heavy rain pouring down,do not run away and hide ourself,hide our hearts,hide our smiles
because there is something wonderful behind it waiting for us...may be.....
life is short,in fact too short...too short to be wasted.. everyday,every minute,every second,we are actually exchanging our life for it... choices are given in our life...we can choose to waste it or use it... i know very well that time passes by and gone forever...but the laziness in me still pulling me away from catching up the time...i am still wasting my time....GoT To cHaNgE!!!cause i know the price i paid for it... Live life with no regrets...
Recently i have been asking myself what is the point for me to live??what is the main purpose of my life???Yeah,i got few aims/targets/goals that i want to achieve in my life...may be i can achieve them some day...what i am thinking deeply right now is not the goals or anything other things...but i am searching deeply in my mind that what if i have achieved all the goals and got all the things i want,what is the things or purpose for me to live??? No any answers in my mind right now... However,the closest one is LOVE.
this is best song for my lonely cny and valentine's day(actually it was not so lonely,but somehow i felt i was in a different world,kind of like hide my heart and made a gate around me separated myself from all the people,never had been so lonely than this before... totally not in both valentine's day and chinese new year mood...plus still having those stupid classes in this once in a year time... maybe tiredness made me felt i was isolated myself,the heart..without showing out too obvious.. so i think this is the best song to say my feeling right now.... there are a plenty of different versions of this song,and i think this the best among all the other versions,my personal opinion though,hehe,wish everyones happy chinese new year and happy valentine's day..for those who are single and attach
the lyric Desperado, why don't you come to your senses You've been out ridin' fences, for so long - now. Ohh you're a hard one. I know that you've got your reasons. These things that are pleasin'you Can hurt you somehow.
Don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy She'll beat you if she's able. You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet. Now it seems to me, some fine things Have been laid upon your table. But you only want the ones That you can't get.
Desperado, Ohhhh you aint getting no younger. Your pain and your hunger, They're driving you home. And freedom, ohh freedom. Well that's just some people talking. Your prison is walking through this world all alone.
Don't your feet get cold in the winter time? The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine. It's hard to tell the night time from the day. And you're losing all your highs and lows aint it funny how the feeling goes away...
Desperado, Why don't you come to your senses? come down from your fences, open the gate. It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you. You better let somebody love you. (let sombody love you) You better let somebody love you...ohhh..hooo before it's too..oooo.. late.
saw this post in thestar..and found it is quite interesting cause i really thought that all the girls,at least most of the girls wash their bra quite often,maybe few times per week....but.... http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/2/13/nation/5669088&sec=nation
Girls, how often do you wash your bra? Other News & View Compiled by ANN TAN, ZANI SALLEH AND A.RAMAN
A SURVEY has found that a number of Singaporean girls wash their bras only once a week, Sin Chew Daily reported.
Some never washed them at all, the daily said, quoting a survey carried out by a news portal. More than 200 women took part in the survey.
It said that as of Feb 9, 108 respondents said they washed and changed their bras everyday but 42 others said they only changed them once a week. Another six said they washed their bras once a year while six others said they never washed their bras.
The daily quoted the online news writer as saying he was surprised with the level of cleanliness among Singaporean girls.
“Although some women work in an air-conditioned environment and may not sweat so often, the skin will still turn oily after some time and this will result in body odour. It is thus more appropriate to change the bra every day,” he said.
However, a gynaecologist said it is not necessary for women to change their bras every day especially if they work at the office.
“Bras are not like panties which have to be changed daily. But for those who sweat easily, it is advisable to change the bras frequently.”
Thanks God for giving me a 5 for the past histology exam,and also a 4 for the past anatomy exam although bit disappointed with the 4 for anatomy because i really worked very hard for that,but anyway still thanks God.
Thanks Him for giving me a good teacher during my histology exam(the system in russia is one on one partly oral partly written with slides and electronmicrograph).i had a lot confidence when come to the slides and electronmicrograph caused i prepared very early and hard for this part,and i got more talent for this.At first i pray to ask God to give a good teacher and not the teacher i got in the end(she is also my histology lecturer) caused i scared the lecturer remembered my face(as i always slept in her lectures and got caught by her before),but in the end she came for me and ask me whether the picture in the zachut book(a book in russian that show that we cleared colloqium and able to take the final exam),and i got no choice but say yes.She was very kind to me,although i could not answered one of the question but she gave me another question,and i could answered that.At last she gave me a 5 and told me that is a 5 with a big big minus...i was liked who cares as long as it is a 5...thanks God..
For the anatomy exam,i was bit unlucky got a russian teacher,he is very kind,i mean kind in a way that will not make you too worry when doing the test,but the problem was the communication problem and i did not have much time to prepare my answer,that why i got a 4..but still thanks God..although i did not really know how to answer the variant(written part),but yet i could squeezed something out from my brain to tembak and they are correct..
Before and during the exam period i wanted to sleep a lot,to watch a lot movies and series,to shop a lot,to eat a lot of good food,and i was very boring.and facebook all the time.. However after the exam period i sleep till cannot sleep well at night,watch movies also watch till boring,no matter how i shop i also do not feel it is fun,and i am still boring and still facebook..haiz..pity life..and quite lonely too.. the only thing that i did successfully was to eat good food,i did this very well and i spent a lot on the food now,hehe... maybe will start copy lecture notes or start prepare for next semester's materials.
P/S: in russia 5 is a excellent mark or full mark,and 4 is good,3 is pass,2 and 1 are fail.
