horzhan in russia

有人在爱着你。。

2010-04-25T14:07:00.000-07:00

侧耳倾听，如果你能听见你的心跳，那么你爱的人，也在爱着你。闭上眼睛，如果你的唇边挂着一丝微笑，那么你爱的人，也在爱着你。

相信以否，这世界上总会有人在想着你，在爱着你，在关心着你。
我们不应该浪费时间心思在一些钻牛角尖的事情上，想想到底谁才是我们应该珍惜，应该关心的人，
试问我们到底几久没关心我们的父母了？我说的是真真的关心。。
我们上一次把心思放在父母身上是几时呢？我们是不是对女朋友或男朋友都比对我们的父母好呢？
答案我们都心知吧。。

树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在

趁现在还不迟，好好爱爱他们吧！别等到没有时间了，亲不在了才后悔。。。

我是一只小小鸟

2010-04-20T22:58:00.000-07:00

赵传 - 我是一只小小鸟

作词：李宗盛作曲：李宗盛编曲：Donald Ashley

有时候我觉得自己像一只小小鸟

想要飞却怎样也飞不高

也许有一天我栖上了枝头却成为猎人的目标

我飞上了青天才发现自己从此无依无靠

每次到了夜深人静的时候我总是睡不着

我怀疑是不是只有我的明天没有变得更好

未来会怎样究竟有谁会知道

幸福是否只是一种传说我永远都找不到

我是一只小小小小鸟

想要飞呀飞却飞也飞不高

我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱

这样的要求算不算太高

所有知道我的名字的人啊你们好不好

世界是如此的小我们注定无处可逃

当我尝尽人情冷暖

当你决定为了你的理想燃烧

生活的压力与生命的尊严那一个重要

突然很感慨。。。突然觉得自己像一只小小鸟，一只知生自灭的小小鸟，一只无依无靠的小小鸟，
一只需要温暖的怀抱的小小鸟，一只永远都飞不高但却一直努力掙扎往上飞的傻小鸟，
一只没人会可怜的小小鸟，因为人们认为那是它自找的。。。

你曾感到寂寞孤獨憤怒落魄無奈嗎? 你曾也對人生感到失望嗎?
你並不孤單 -
因為我也在這個冷酷的世界裡掙扎著 - 朋友 - 讓我們一起慢慢的往前走吧!

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WANTED....

2010-04-01T18:37:00.000-07:00

recently i just feel like wanted someone to love me, who know me very well and still love me after all,

maybe this is because the loneliness in me....

but still i will make sure i will try my best not to fall in love easily,and not to break up again...

as it is hurting every time when break up in a relationship

i do not want to repeat the same mistakes, i do not want to be hurt or hurt others

therefore, i am trying to be moving on the safe path....and lets the wind bring me to the right way,and reach my destination by fate.

saw this picture....
it's very meaningful..
if you want to love someone or you want someone to love you, the first thing you need to do is love yourself..
so we must learn to understand ourself, appreciate our uniqueness and respect our opinions, and develop a life-long relationship with our own self...which we already kept and hid them long long ago...
we learnt to protect ourselves from outer dangers by hiding our real true self.......but now show them out, and be proud as who you are....because this world has only one you...no ones can replace you...
when we do not love ourselves, what can we expect from others???
no ones love those who do not love themselves

Subway blast: RT presenter caught in mayhem of Moscow metro bombing.

2010-03-29T17:01:00.000-07:00

Subway blast: RT presenter caught in mayhem of Moscow metro bombing.

People always realize the importance and remember their love ones only when they are in danger,only when they are pushed to the edge of the no-ending-road...
This often happened to be too late....
So start from this second,love the people around you, love yourself (value your life , love your enemies(they will not longer be your enemies if you or them got into trouble,so appreciate,value them and thanks them for giving you troubles to help you to grow to be a better person, it is also because of fate they become your enemies,therefore we should just accept the fate,accept them and forgive them for our God forgive us for what we did,so we need to do so too..)no ones know what will happen in the next second, do not wait till too late and be regretted, we just do not know when we will not ever have the chance anymore to do so, to love them, to accept them, to forgive them....We must love people in our lives,we must love our self, and also love God..
Love is the greatest gift God gives us, and it is the greatest gift we can give others and ourselves...
So let us start lovinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng
i'm lovin it...

horzhan is in the dangerous Moscow now

2010-03-29T00:10:00.000-07:00

Moscow subway(metro) explosion,in central Lubyanka station at 0756 (0356 GMT). Police said the dead included 14 people inside a train and 11 on the platform.

The second explosion came about 40 minutes later at the Park Kultury station, where 12 people were killed.

Authorities in the Russian capital have declared them "terrorist" incidents.

haiz, Moscow is no longer a safe place to stay.......cause this time,the blasts happened not too far from us already....and it is more dangerous for those who travel around Moscow to go to classes or hospitals......

nothing we can do,may be just to observe the situation more attentively,go out together with a group of people(all these seems like nonsense for the prevention,nothing we can do to avoid the blasts,except stay in the hostels,perhaps..)

Below are the links that talking about the news of the blasts that just happened today morning,at park kulturi and lubyanka which both of this station are on red line....
may be try to avoid to go to this line......it is better to take precaution.....no one knows what will happens
so Pray to God for his protection...
the worst thing is,i still got 4 years for my study at here,Moscow,Russia,haizzzzzz....
feel sad to those who died,they are totally innocent,except the rumour self-boomer..
if anything happen,please try to solve it with communication and other methods,but not killing,things will not change in the end if we kill to solve problems
Life is precious,as everyone of us have only one life,and one chance to live,no ones can take away people chances....

Be careful.....
http://www.cnn.com/2010/WORLD/europe/03/29/russia.subway.explosion/index.html

http://rt.com/Top_News/2010-03-29/moscow-metro-blast-victims.html

http://www.foxnews.com/world/2010/03/29/blast-moscow-metro-kills/

rainbow after the rain....

2010-03-28T19:25:00.000-07:00

Nothing goes perfectly for us

but being incomplete is what pushes us onward,

life would be boring if it is perfect,

happiness can only be greater when there is sadness,

people will only appreciate and realize the importance of the things they have when they lost them,

same goes to happiness,

and time,like what i posted before,time = life,

but if we waste all our time on sleeping or other unimportant stuffs,which mean will not bring any benefits to others and ourselves,

then time = wasted...

we got only one life,one chance to live,i can not find any reasons why we should not live happily,

yes,it is true that we can not control what will happens on us,

and may be just like a lot people saying,there is the choice there but it is not upon them to make the choice,

i want to be a optimist,for some people say optimists are actually people that living in lies,their beautiful and wonderful lies,

but so what,living in lies can be far better than living in sorrowfulness,if reality is so ''realistic''

continue to be a happy man....hehe....there is always a rainbow after the rain....,do not give up our hopes on the dark cloudy and stormy sky with heavy rain pouring down,do not run away and hide ourself,hide our hearts,hide our smiles

because there is something wonderful behind it waiting for us...may be.....

悲剧

2010-03-24T17:05:00.000-07:00

也许悲剧是我们人生的开头，但是那却肯定不会是结局，我们可以重新来过，并坚挺的再站起来，
失恋是我们一段感情的结束，但失去一棵树我们还有一片森林，森林里通常有很多被忽略的良树，
也许我们天天面对不如意事，但那肯定不是我们生命的完结篇，只要还活着就有重新来过的权利，
每一个明天代表着新的开始，每一个结束其实就是全新的开始，在哪里跌倒了就要在那里站起来，
虽然我们往往不能控制将会发生在我们身上的事，不论好或坏，但我们能够控制我们的内心世界，
开心与否，其实没想像中那么困难，关键就在于我们自己而已，从今，让我们开开心心过每一天。

We can not determine what is going to happen on us,but we can control what is happens in us..

Live life happily...hehe

不经一番寒彻骨，哪得梅花扑鼻香

2010-03-23T18:45:00.000-07:00

不经一番寒彻骨，哪得梅花扑鼻香

如一切得来轻易，哪能显出她之重

如不经刻苦努力，哪能显出我之情。

life....

2010-03-11T15:28:00.000-08:00

life is short,in fact too short...too short to be wasted..
everyday,every minute,every second,we are actually exchanging our life for it...
choices are given in our life...we can choose to waste it or use it...
i know very well that time passes by and gone forever...but the laziness in me still pulling me away from catching up the time...i am still wasting my time....GoT To cHaNgE!!!cause i know the price i paid for it...
Live life with no regrets...

Recently i have been asking myself what is the point for me to live??what is the main purpose of my life???Yeah,i got few aims/targets/goals that i want to achieve in my life...may be i can achieve them some day...what i am thinking deeply right now is not the goals or anything other things...but i am searching deeply in my mind that what if i have achieved all the goals and got all the things i want,what is the things or purpose for me to live???
No any answers in my mind right now...
However,the closest one is LOVE.

乌鸦搬家的故事

2010-03-01T14:17:00.000-08:00

乌鸦搬家的故事。吵吵的乌鸦永远都在搬家，但它不知道无论走到哪里，
环境都不会改变，只要认清目标，就要持之以恒，设法去适应环境，将事做好,
“人要适应环境、而不是环境适应人”。我不要做只乌鸦，永远都对环境，人不满。
如果真的太吵，关一关耳朵就过去了，别浪费时间中他们的计。
人不犯我，我不犯人，人若犯我，我也不犯。
我要学会忍耐，小人到处都有，只要自己将心比心，用真诚的心对人就好了，我也不能做小人和乱说话。
知足常乐
我应为我所拥有的一切感到快乐，而不是羡慕别人。
切记没人是完美的，也没人的生活是完美的，但他们却过的快乐，因为他们知道他们拥有什么，而不是一味的只知道他们没有什么

song for the 2010 valentine's day and chinese new year

2010-02-14T13:32:00.000-08:00

this is best song for my lonely cny and valentine's day(actually it was not so lonely,but somehow i felt i was in a different world,kind of like hide my heart and made a gate around me separated myself from all the people,never had been so lonely than this before...
totally not in both valentine's day and chinese new year mood...plus still having those stupid classes in this once in a year time...
maybe tiredness made me felt i was isolated myself,the heart..without showing out too obvious..
so i think this is the best song to say my feeling right now....
there are a plenty of different versions of this song,and i think this the best among all the other versions,my personal opinion though,hehe,wish everyones happy chinese new year and happy valentine's day..for those who are single and attach

the lyric
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses
You've been out ridin' fences,
for so long - now.
Ohh you're a hard one.
I know that you've got your reasons.
These things that are pleasin'you
Can hurt you somehow.

Don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy
She'll beat you if she's able.
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet.
Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table.
But you only want the ones
That you can't get.

Desperado,
Ohhhh you aint getting no younger.
Your pain and your hunger,
They're driving you home.
And freedom, ohh freedom.
Well that's just some people talking.
Your prison is walking through this world all alone.

Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine.
It's hard to tell the night time from the day.
And you're losing all your highs and lows
aint it funny how the feeling goes
away...

Desperado,
Why don't you come to your senses?
come down from your fences, open the gate.
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you.
You better let somebody love you.
(let sombody love you)
You better let somebody love you...ohhh..hooo
before it's too..oooo.. late.

Girls, how often do you wash your bra?

2010-02-13T14:57:00.000-08:00

saw this post in thestar..and found it is quite interesting cause i really thought that all the girls,at least most of the girls wash their bra quite often,maybe few times per week....but....
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/2/13/nation/5669088&sec=nation

Girls, how often do you wash your bra?
Other News & View
Compiled by ANN TAN, ZANI SALLEH AND A.RAMAN

A SURVEY has found that a number of Singaporean girls wash their bras only once a week, Sin Chew Daily reported.

Some never washed them at all, the daily said, quoting a survey carried out by a news portal. More than 200 women took part in the survey.

It said that as of Feb 9, 108 respondents said they washed and changed their bras everyday but 42 others said they only changed them once a week. Another six said they washed their bras once a year while six others said they never washed their bras.

The daily quoted the online news writer as saying he was surprised with the level of cleanliness among Singaporean girls.

“Although some women work in an air-conditioned environment and may not sweat so often, the skin will still turn oily after some time and this will result in body odour. It is thus more appropriate to change the bra every day,” he said.

However, a gynaecologist said it is not necessary for women to change their bras every day especially if they work at the office.

“Bras are not like panties which have to be changed daily. But for those who sweat easily, it is advisable to change the bras frequently.”

♥ 做到这些时才叫他老公吧 ♥

2010-02-01T07:30:00.000-08:00

Saw this post in facebook and found it is very meaningful,quite true..

男朋友在乎你的体重有没有升；老公在乎你今晚有没有吃饱

男朋友在乎你今天打扮的够不够漂亮；老公在乎你今天穿的那么少会不会冻着

当你遇到困难的事情时候，男朋友会安慰你；老公会在第一时间赶到

男朋友在乎你今天开心过没有；老公会在乎你今天遇到不开心的事没有

男朋友只给你买漂亮的时装；老公给你买温暖的羽绒服

男朋友和哥们吃饭不会想你在干什么吃饭怎么办；老公和哥们吃饭会不踏实时不时给你发信息，一遍遍告诉你他很快就会回来

如果你够漂亮，男朋友会考虑要不要把你带给他的朋友看，长长面子：如果你不够漂亮，你的老公走到哪都会带着你，也许你没有勇气，但是他会给你鼓励。

男朋友的家人如果不喜欢你，他会放弃你：老公的家人如果不喜欢你，他会尽自己最大的努力去保护你。

男朋友觉的你们不合适，他会走开，即使他还喜欢你；如果全世界都觉得你们不合适，可是你的老公还是会守候你。

男朋友只会限于他所认为的人知道你的存在；老公会告诉整个世界：你是他的宝贝。

男朋友打完电话会急急挂掉；老公会等你挂断，他才会挂断。

男朋友会在你烦闷的时候让你自己静静；老公会留下来跟你吵架，帮你发泄。

男朋友在你特殊的几天里会躲着你；老公会在那几天给你冲热水，给你讲笑话。

男朋友会把你说分手当真；老公会在你说分手之后挽留你，因为他知道你希望被挽留，并不想走。

男朋友会在自己有能力的范围内满足你；老公会付出一切都要满足你，即使满足不了，他还是会尽最大努力。

男朋友想的明天和未来很少；老公会把你们以后的宝宝名字都取好。

男朋友不敢给承诺，给了也未必做到。老公敢于做出了承诺，而且一定会做到。

男朋友不敢相信你们的爱情；老公会把娶你当做他的人生目标，并且渴望和你一起变老。

亲爱的朋友们，当你觉得他做到这些时再叫他老公吧！

因为老公才是这个世界上真正爱你的男人

only call him as ur hubby when he can do all these..

Post-exam...

2010-01-27T19:18:00.000-08:00

Thanks God for giving me a 5 for the past histology exam,and also a 4 for the past anatomy exam although bit disappointed with the 4 for anatomy because i really worked very hard for that,but anyway still thanks God.

Thanks Him for giving me a good teacher during my histology exam(the system in russia is one on one partly oral partly written with slides and electronmicrograph).i had a lot confidence when come to the slides and electronmicrograph caused i prepared very early and hard for this part,and i got more talent for this.At first i pray to ask God to give a good teacher and not the teacher i got in the end(she is also my histology lecturer) caused i scared the lecturer remembered my face(as i always slept in her lectures and got caught by her before),but in the end she came for me and ask me whether the picture in the zachut book(a book in russian that show that we cleared colloqium and able to take the final exam),and i got no choice but say yes.She was very kind to me,although i could not answered one of the question but she gave me another question,and i could answered that.At last she gave me a 5 and told me that is a 5 with a big big minus...i was liked who cares as long as it is a 5...thanks God..

For the anatomy exam,i was bit unlucky got a russian teacher,he is very kind,i mean kind in a way that will not make you too worry when doing the test,but the problem was the communication problem and i did not have much time to prepare my answer,that why i got a 4..but still thanks God..although i did not really know how to answer the variant(written part),but yet i could squeezed something out from my brain to tembak and they are correct..

Before and during the exam period i wanted to sleep a lot,to watch a lot movies and series,to shop a lot,to eat a lot of good food,and i was very boring.and facebook all the time..
However after the exam period i sleep till cannot sleep well at night,watch movies also watch till boring,no matter how i shop i also do not feel it is fun,and i am still boring and still facebook..haiz..pity life..and quite lonely too..
the only thing that i did successfully was to eat good food,i did this very well and i spent a lot on the food now,hehe...
maybe will start copy lecture notes or start prepare for next semester's materials.

P/S: in russia 5 is a excellent mark or full mark,and 4 is good,3 is pass,2 and 1 are fail.

i was once............

2009-12-29T19:14:00.000-08:00

i was once open my heart to everyone that passes by me,even sometime i smiled to someone i don't know from the bottom of my heart.But now my heart is more likely to be in a partially close stage,i can't go out from the heart and people can't enter my heart too,sad right, and i don't know why and since when.
i was once very friendly and i made friends easily and fast,i joked with them,yeah,normally they give me laughter and smile in return lar if i didn't insult them directly or indirectly.
i was once very childish and always speak to people without thinking more than twice,yeah it hurts sometime i know,but so what i didn't mean to hurt anyone,my thinking was i was just playing around,why everyone so serious,i liked to make fun of my friends with those rude words(not faulty language lar,just some kind of insulting lor). i felt like why we need to keep something when my friends are doing a big big mistake in front of me,i know my comment don't help but yet those are still words from my heart.
i have changed now,a lot. i don't know whether the changes are good or not, but what i can say is i miss the old me,i miss my old-time friends(secondary school friends),although when we went out gathering we got lesser things to talk but we really understand each other,we already used to everyone's talking styles,we really don't need to care too much when we want to say something,i know it is straight forward,but we like that,we insult people,yes,but it is more to like for entertainment purpose,we play,we laugh,from the bottom of our heart,i believe that no matter how i change,i am still the old me,is just that i have already lost something that is unique in me,part of my characteristic is gone,and yeah i miss them now.
i was once noisy,but now i feel that i am a lot more quiet than the old me.i was once always talking non-stop in the class when i was in the school,so did my friends,we did a lot of rubbish,we wasted a lot of time during my secondary school time but we were happy,and i am not happy right now,after those changes that i don't when they have changed and how.
i know growing mature mean you have to sacrifice some of your personality like childishness and so on.however i don't know whether i am growing mature or not,but if growing mature mean to throw all my unique personalities away,i would rather choose to be childish,since i can't get happiness if i grow mature,no points there.
Friends are to stand together with each other no matter what happen,friends won't don't want to be friend with you just because you did some mistakes,or your attitude problems,but in fact they tell you your problem and go through all that with you.
A friend in need is a true friend indeed.
i was once lonely and yeah i am still lonely now,the thing that haven't change in me.
i am going to be a better person,more hardworking and so on and so on.....
Life still long to go,i know this is only the beginning so i will tell myself to keep it on, and yeah i can do it a lot better than what i am doing right now.
i need to study,i need to be more hardworking,because i can do a lot better if i really put in some effort.
Just as what my mum told me when i was sitting for spm,she told me that she don't care how good is my result if i didn't put in effort,but if i work hard and put in a lot of effort,even my result is not so good,even if i fail,she also will feel happy for me
So study lar,hehe....add oil to myself 1st,must pass anatomy colloq today,at least one.

坦然..忘记

2009-12-26T14:55:00.000-08:00

我知道认识你爱上你
了解你看穿你并不简单
可是离开你失去你忘记你
我又该怎么办
尤其时常在梦中有你作伴
总教人在梦与醒之间两难

我知道原谅你放纵你
包容你疼爱你其实不难
宁愿背叛你隐瞒你报复你
我也比较坦然

在这虚幻城市中无人陪伴
我只好在爱与恨之间离散
满有意思的歌词，取自于陶晶莹的那些日子。

我不想忘记你
真的不想忘记你，可是
我该把你的影子放在什么地方
我的手已经酸了
心也累了。

Quote of the day

2009-12-19T06:48:00.000-08:00

Personally I'm always ready to learn, although I do not always like being taught.

By Sir Winston Churchill.

Such a naughty boy right,so the boy in this picture also the same.

Quote of the day

2009-12-17T07:02:00.000-08:00

When I do good, I feel good; when I do bad, I feel bad, and that is my religion.

BY Abraham Lincoln

深埋在，心头 (dEep InSiDe mY HeArT)

2009-12-16T11:48:00.000-08:00

凡走过，必留下，痕迹
曾伤过，定会有，伤痕
每一步，每一滴，血泪
意味着，我们已，成长
但然而，血泪与，伤痕
都只能，深埋在，心头。

Lu cina ah?

2009-04-04T07:25:00.000-07:00

What makes Chinese-CHINESE?

Please check the list to see how Chinese you or your friends really are:
There are 29 waysto know if you're Chinese. You will laugh at yourself when you read all of them.

1. You unwrap gifts very carefully, so you can save and reuse the wrapping
(and especially those ribbons).

2. When there is a sale on toilet paper, you buy 100 rolls and store them in your closet or in the bedroom of an adult child who has move out.

3. You keep a Thermos of hot water available at all times.

4. You save grocery bags, tin foil, and tin containers. You use the grocery bags to hold garbage.

5. You hate to waste food:
(a) Even if you're totally full, if someone says they're going to throw away the leftovers on the table, you'll finish them. (Your mom will give a lecture about starving kids in Africa ).
(b) You have Tupperware in your fridge with three bites of rice or one leftover chicken wing.

6. You don't own any real Tupperware- only a cupboard full of used but
carefully rinsed margarine tubs, take out containers, and jam jars.

7. You have a collection of miniature shampoo bottles that you take every
time you stay in a hotel.

8. You wipe your plate and utensils or wash them in a small basin of hot
water before you eat every time you go to a restaurant.

9 . You own a rice cooker and a slow cooker

10. You wash your rice at least 2-3 times before cooking it.

11. You fight (literally) over who pays the dinner bill.

12. You have a teacup with a cover on it.

13. If you're under age 20, you own a really expensive walkman if you're
over 20, you own a really expensive camera.

14. You're a wok user.

15. You only make long distance calls after 7pm.

16. You prefer your shrimp with the heads and legs still attached-it,
means they're fresh.

17. You never call your parents just to say, ' Hi. '

18. If you don't live at home, when your parents call, they'll ask if you've eaten, even if it's midnight.

19. Your parents tell you to boil herbs and stay indoors when you get
sick. They also tell you not to eat fried foods or baked foods because
such food are ' heaty' (yeet hey in Cantonese).

20. You e-mail your Chinese friends at work, even though you only sit 10 feet apart.

21. You always cook too much.

22. You eat every last grain of rice in your bowl, but don't eat the last
piece of food on the table.

23. You starve yourself before going to ' All You Can Eat ' buffet.

24. You know someone who can get you a good deal on jewelry or
electronics, computers.

25 . You own your own meat cleaver and sharpen it.

26. Your toothpaste tubes are all squeezed paper-thin.

27. You call a sausage a hotdog.

28. You wrap with napkins all the knives, spoons and forks of the airline that you fly on and put in your travel-bag as souvenirs

29. You never forget to take with you all the unused bath and facial tissues when you check out from the hotel because you believe that you have paid its all.

2009-03-17T08:03:00.000-07:00

I found this essay is so true.. girls, must read!

女孩，当你说没有好男人时请看看!

女孩，当你说没有好男人时请看看!

十岁以前，就不说了，无非是淘气和不懂事。

十三、四岁的时候，开始对女孩有好感，但是那时候他离女孩远远的，并且以讨厌女孩自居，生怕被同伴嘲笑。

十五岁的时候，听到大人们说某某男人好花，把女朋友甩了，女孩自杀了。他觉得这人真狠毒，自己将来一定要做个痴情的男人，一定要一生只爱一个人。

十六岁的时候，他喜欢上了一个女孩，但是他不敢和她说。仍然和往常一样，脏兮兮的在灰土飞扬的操场上踢球。只在女孩走出校门的时候，躲在二层的窗户上看她的背影,他觉得她一定是个天使。

十七岁的时候，有个女孩喜欢上了他，但是他离她很远，他心里面只有自己那个女孩，他觉得看别的女孩都是对她的不忠。

十八岁的时候，看了一个MTV，感动得想哭，他想，如果自己的女孩失去了双眼，他一定男主角会毫不犹豫的把自己的眼睛给她，让她能看到光明。

十九岁的时候，高考了。终于和自己暗恋的女孩分别，坐火车去学校的时候，感觉自己离她越来越远，心像被掏空了一样。还在想自己一定不会忘记她，等到自己成功以后一定要去找她。

二十岁的时候，听到有人讲黄色笑话，觉得这人真可耻。

二十一岁的时候，她的回信中告诉他，自己有了男朋友。偷偷的哭了一个晚上。

二十二岁的时候，他向一个女孩表白，女孩说"你是个好人，可是我还小。"他想，我的确是个好人，他说"没关系，我可以等你。"心想，我不会像那些花心的人一样，三年五年我也能等。

二十三岁的时候，说自己还小的女孩和一个帅哥恋爱了。他很纳闷，长大原来可以这快。

二十四岁的时候，他又向一个女孩表白，女孩说"你是个好人，可是我并不适合你。" 他纳闷很久，我是好人你怎么还不适合我呢？

二十五岁的时候，他又追求一个女孩，女孩接受了他。他开始很幸福的为未来拼搏，他想，一时的开心只是暂时的，只有努力拼搏，他和她才能有快乐的未来，但是，半年以后，女孩和他分手了。只是因为另外一个男孩会说让她开心的话。女孩说"你是个好人，是我对不起你。"他似乎明白了问题所在，他是个好人。

二十六岁的时候，他开始堕落，交网友。打扮得时尚而酷，而且渐渐的学习着讨好女孩的话。不久，他有了个女朋友，虽然他对她也很好，可是，他心里知道，自己并不爱她。

二十七岁的时候，他和女孩分手了。他对女孩说"你是个好女孩，是我对不起你。"

二十八岁的时候，他尝试了一夜情，发现别人能做的，自己也一样。

二十九岁的时候，他学会了讲黄色笑话，并且以看旁边的女孩子脸红为乐趣。

三十岁的时候，他忽然发现自己变得很有能力追求到女孩，但是却没有了爱的能力

其实每个男孩，本来都是想做一个感情专一的好男人的。
其实每个男孩，本来看女孩子都是看脸而不是胸部的。
其实每个男孩，本来都是不会讲黄色笑话的。
其实每个男孩，本来都是渴望爱一个人直到永远的。
只是，没有任何女孩爱这样的男孩，
她们觉得这样的男孩太幼稚，太古板，没有情趣。
于是男孩开始改变，变成女孩喜欢的那种嘴角挂着坏坏的笑，玩世不恭或者幽默
开始学会说甜言蜜语而不是心里想说的话开始学会假装关心，
学会给女孩送小饰物讨好她学会如何追求，如何把握爱情。
或者看破红尘，游戏情场，成为女人恨恨的那种男人
他们可以很容易俘获女孩子的心，但是他们也会在黑的夜里叼着烟流泪，
心里有爱的时候，没有女孩。有了女孩，却永远没有了爱的感觉。
在听到女人抱怨世上没有一个好男人时候，
他们不会再去努力做个好男人，只是微笑着擦肩而过

why guys like girls???

2009-03-06T06:33:00.000-08:00

Here are a few reasons
why guys like girls:

1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo

2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder

3. How cute they look when they sleep

4. The ease in which they fit into our arms

5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world(although she has not kiss me yet,but still i know that this must be very sweet)

6. How cute they are when they eat

7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while

8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside

9. The way they look good no matter what they wear

10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth

11. How cute they are when they argue

12. The way her hand always finds yours

13. The way they smile

14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight

15. The way she says 'lets not fight anymore' even though you know that an hour later....

16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them

17. The way they kiss you when you say 'I love you'

18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you...

19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry

20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly

21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt

22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it)! ( horzhan 100percent agree with this too)

23. The way they say 'I miss you'

24. The way you miss them

25.The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore(horzhan totally agree with this)..... Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not.
Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.
A feeling.Only felt.

happy chinese 牛 year

2009-01-27T15:49:00.000-08:00

i never ever thought before i will be celebrating Chinese new year in Moscow.
however, this year i am celebrating Chinese new year in Moscow. It is quite boring la and a bit lonely lo in celebrating Chinese new year in Russia.
Lucky no matter where i go to, there will be always a lot of friends around me, in Moscow also the same. They made me not that boring during this Chinese 牛 year. hehe. i am already attended 3 Chinese new year celebration although today is only the 3rd day of Chinese new year. and,we got other activity also la----shopping....

I am almost broken already,but i still got some money because i withdrew my February pocket money already and it does not left much also. hehe.
i love money,but i love my friends more,sounds like i am cheating right? hehe,but i am honestly la for that although it sounds quite fake.

By the way,i wish everyone's wishes come true in this year of Ox, and happy all the time. Happy Chinese new year.

14-1-2009

2009-01-13T16:16:00.000-08:00

14/1 is Dominic's birthday ( Dominic is my best friend in Russia, so far la....hehe, xD )

I wanted to sing birthday song to you with Derrick they all at your very first moment of your 21st birthday.

Sorry but at last i did not sing or wish you happy birthday at that moment.

And so, to let me do not feel that guilty, I am going to buy you a present(less than 4oo rubles is my budget la), hopefully can get a cheaper present too, and so I can save my money,hehe. xD

By the way, I really do not know what can I buy and give you as your birthday present.

If really I cannot think what to buy, I will just simply buy something, since got present for you is very good enough already.

Last but not least, in a formal way, wish you have a happy birthday, and you will be happy and still that fat ( for sure la ) in this new year. good luck for your exam too. Gambateh lo.

i am so .....lazy in these holidays.....???

2009-01-07T15:46:00.000-08:00

i wasted most of the time of these new year holidays. i did not know where my time had went to...sobs....i was too free until wanted to change the colors of my blog. Finally i changed the every colors of my blog. At first i thought the colors combination was quite nice after i changed them,but then when i looked more on it,i found my blog had became quite weird now.Maybe i will be going to change it soon because i not really cannot accept my blog's new colors combination.
But i really like the background color of my blog since blue is my favorite color.

Although holidays are going to end soon and i got some exams to settle,but then i am so lazy and always think like the Garfield(in the picture of this post),"i can but i wont", i do not know whether it is funny or sad la for me to have this type of personality. sobs. Every time i always tell myself not to be so lazy,but again and again my laziness is just could not leave me apart. Today i am going to tell myself again that i will improve and not being so lazy like what i used to be.(At least decrease my laziness from 95 percent to 80 percent lo)hehe, and this is my dream of year 2009,wish my dream can comes true la.

男孩的。。。。。。心。。。。。。像玻璃。。。。。。

2008-12-17T16:03:00.000-08:00

女孩应该原谅男孩的10个地方...

1。如果你喜欢他就告诉他，即使他拒绝了，也不会丢面子，因为在他心里，会因为你的真情而非常非常感激你。

2。如果他喜欢你，要明确告诉他你对他的感，喜欢就是喜欢，不喜欢就是不喜欢，万不要怕伤害他而忧郁不决，不要让他等到最后才受到抛弃，因为男孩子的心一旦伤了就很难很难再好起来。

3 。男孩子也有自己的脾气，只是因为爱你而压抑着，不要总是任性，有时他们的决定也很有道理.

4。男孩子莫名的向你发脾气，那时因为爱你把你当成最亲，最贴心，最有安全感的，千万不要冲他发脾气反击，静静的等着，等他消气后满怀后悔来抱你。

5。他为你准备的东西，即使再难看，再廉价，也要去珍惜，因为那里面融汇着他整晚的思绪。

6 。相信他给你多么多么美好的生活，要给他鼓励，因为鼓励会让他创造奇迹。

7 。不要总是打探他去哪，告诉他注意安全，你会等着他就可以。

8 。不要总说~我爱你~，他会半真半笑着说你烦，但不要不说，因为有时候，他们比女孩子更需要这句。

9。他为你掉眼泪了，那么他是真的非常爱你珍惜他的每一滴泪，不要道歉，不要安慰，握着他的手，默默的为他擦去泪滴。

10 。要信任他，他爱你，就什么都不会骗你，即使真的有欺骗，也是为让你们的爱情能够永远不离不弃。

are u a lazy person???

2008-12-14T14:42:00.000-08:00

Since small i was telling others that i am a lazy person,till now i am still telling others the same thing.

I was born in Snake year(one of the twelve animals that symbolizing the Twelve Branches used to designate years,according to lunar calendar).

Snake,at first based on my point of thinking, is a lazy creature, and so do i since i was born in snake year.

However when i searched by typing personality of snake in google,i saw something that i never thought before.....I felt quite funny after looking them.

One of the results of my searching by google said that ''Snakes are wise and are not people who can be easily ignored. They possess a strong, charismatic presence and a charm which has been described by some astrologers as "bewitching" or "beguiling." With a penetrating eye and attention to the desires of their conquests, they're known as experts in the art of seduction.

In ancient Taoism, the Snake is the symbol of wisdom. Therefore people born during the Year of the Snake are said to be endowed with deep philosophical understanding.

They are born thinkers who excel in finding solutions to complex problems. In matters of business they can be shrewd, biding their time in making a deal only to strike like lightning and make a killing when they judge the moment is right.

Thus in life, the majority of Snakes are financially successful and generally lucky with money; their fortunes very much depend on their careful and considered judgment in financial affairs and on their intuitive feelings in business negotiations.

These are clever, intelligent people who take time to formulate their ideas and opinions.

Even when they are at their laziest, their minds are working overtime, laying their schemes and hatching their plots for the future.

Snakes are wise, philosophical, calm, and understanding. They are receptive and physically alluring, often fickle.

Success and fame come easily to Snakes. They can be treacherous creatures who delight in intrigue and who wouldn't think twice about double-crossing someone in order to save their own skins.

Their calculating natures will never forgive or forget a slight. They can be lazy and self-indulgent.

Their innate elegance can at times be ostentatious. Subtle, secretive, elusive and enigmatic, there is an element of the mysterious that surrounds the Snake personality. Perhaps this is due to their intuitive faculties, or perhaps it is a consequence of their strong inner spirituality which can manifest itself in an interest in religion, mysticism or the occult. A Snake is extremely determined and strives for what he desires regardless of circumstances; he can be counted on to carry a project through to the end.

Unlike the Dragon who accomplishes set goals through intense outward actions and activities, the Snake accomplishes his goals through careful plans and calculations. Their decisions are quick and firm, but they are formed by first impressions, on sympathies and feelings logically assembled in their minds -- rather than by simple facts alone.

Snakes will fight and plod for anything they believe in and allow nothing to stand in their way. At ease in all circumstances and possessing uncommon self-discipline and immense mental capacity, the Snake achieves great heights and honors in his or her career, enjoying the well deserved respect of an admiring entourage.

Snakes are a bit tight when it comes to lending money, though their sympathy for others often leads them to offer help. The help will be in kind rather than in cash, however; the Snake is freer with himself than he is with his money! The fatal flaw in the Snake's character is, in fact, a tendency to exaggerate -- in helping friends as with everything else. If a Snake does somebody a favor, he becomes possessive toward them in an odd way, so that finally he is more a hindrance than a help.

The snake's serpentine nature leads him to coil and cling to the point where he can suffocate the object of his attention.

Think twice then, before you accept an offer of help from a Snake; you could regret it! Snakes can be ruthless when challenged. Since the Snake is the master of the human psyche, this makes him a formidable enemy.

In money matters, the Snake has good luck -- he simply doesn't have to worry about it. He will always be able to get money when he needs it, and he feels this so strongly that it has never bothered him at all. Once he has got it, though, he's a little stingy; that's why he never lends.

In old age he can become quite miserly.

Snakes are notoriously good looking and like to project the best image of themselves that they can. Both men and women of the sign have elegant and stylish taste in clothes; the men are sexy and always have a bit of the dandy about them, and the ladies are seductive and rave over smart accessories. Whether in looks or in circumstances, Snakes simply have a magical knack of making the very best out of the most mediocre.

In Japan, those wishing to pay a woman a compliment and acknowledge her beauty are accustomed to say: "My dear, you are a real snake!" -- a pleasantry most likely to be misinterpreted in the West.

As with real snakes, which hibernate in the cold season and come out when it's warm, Snake people shine in the hot months. And the Snake born at midday in the heat of a tropical summer will be happier than one born in the middle of an icy night in winter. The destiny of those born under this sign is so sensitive to the inclemencies of climate that the almanac warns Snakes born on a stormy day that they will face danger throughout their lives.

The Snake personality is described as careful, and when it comes to the choice of a partner these people are infinitely selective. For them, only the best will do. Elegance will be one of the first attractions, but so too is good breeding and delicate manners.

When they find the partner of their dreams they will brook no opposition, allow nothing to stand in their way, until they win the heart of the object of their desire.

Having won their prize, they then become possessive and jealous, fearful that it should slip out of their hands. Deeply passionate, these are demanding lovers, highly sensual creatures, sexy in the extreme. Lady Snakes are ultra-feminine -- sultry, exotic creatures, femmes fatales in every sense. Success and power will turn her on and she will probably make a beeline for the richest and most influential person she can find.

Those born under the sign of the Snake often tend to be afflicted with a wandering eye, especially the Snake males who delight in women. Unfortunately, both sexes tend to complicate their lives with extramarital affairs. If they can struggle against this trait and succeed in channelling their affections inwards towards their own families, they will gain enormous serenity and inner harmony in their lives. If the Snake settles down, he or she can become a marvelous parent, creating a calm and stable atmosphere for their offspring. The Snake will often have a large family -- for him, it's just one more way of making sure that his wife has no time to play around like he does.

Lovers and spouses

THE SNAKE LOVER
Snakes are beautiful people who exhibit quite a sexual appeal. They are sleek and seductive and if they want you, will out a spell on you that won’t let you stop thinking about them. However, Snakes are quite prejudiced when choosing a partner and don’t just choose based on physical qualities. The Snake needs a partner who can appreciate his quirky sense of humor and his wacky way of handling situations, so generally, although quite beautiful and tempting to approach, the Snake does all the pursuing.

MARRIAGE
Because the Snake is so choosy, he can become jealous and obsessive about his partner. They can be a bit stand-offish with their mates, choosing to push away emotions rather than confront their feelings and insecurities. Once betrayed, you can bank on not ever being trusted by the Snake again as much as you can bet he will get even.

THE SNAKE LOVE PARTNER
Not everyone can live and be happy with a Snake. It takes a patient soul, someone ready for the long haul, who can calm his nerves and deal with his obsessions with skill. Chinese horoscopes are very specific about which partnerships have the potential to be successful in love and in business. Yet, though destiny can point us in the right direction, we must still make all efforts to maintain loving relationships. Following is a brief description of how a Snake will affect a relationship with other Animal Signs.

The Rabbit, Dragon and Monkey are on good terms with Snakes, but the Horse and the Dog annoy them. A firm alliance can be achieved with the Rooster. The insecure Snake will be happy with the supportive Ox, who is content to be overrun by this family on condition that the Ox is always accepted as boss -- a role that the Snake willingly concedes in the home. The Boar should beware of the Snake who will impose upon him, ensnare and immobilize him, while the Snake wallows in his own faults, knowing that he can get away with it. June is the month of the Snake. The time of the Snake is from 9:00 a.m. to 10:59 a.m.; their direction of orientation is south-southeast. The Snake's color is red.''

Years of the Snake

Snake Years are sixth in the cycle, following the Dragon Years, and recur every twelfth year. The Chinese New Year does not fall on a specific date, so it is essential to check the calendar to find the exact date on which each Snake Year actually begins.
1905*1917*1929*1941*1953*1965*1977*1989*2001

SNAKES MAKE EXCELLENT:
Scientists
Potters
Analysts
Jewelers
Spiritual Leaders
Sociologists
Dieticians
Astrologers
Magicians
Investigators
Painters

Snakes Dislike: Being interrupted, being mislead personally or professionally, failure

LEONINE SNAKE
Confident and proud, the Leonine Snake hates to come in second place. They fuel on kudos from others, but will become a bit obnoxious if it goes to their heads.

i didn't even knew about this although i am snake. I am so proud for being a snake after read all the description.hehe.

happy chinese 牛 year

am i look lik girls.....???!!!

2008-12-12T12:32:00.000-08:00

Suddenly remembered the slide that i made for my friendster last time.....
then that gave a strong feeling to check who looks like me(my ex did this for her friendster last time)

funny thing is,about 85% of the celebrities that look like me are female,not joking
for me i think it is ok,i am just look like female,this doesn't mean i am a female.
however, i think for guys,mostly,they can't accept if they look like female although sometime they are......hehe....
But guys really should show some strength and masculities from their appearances. so it is a sad case for me as i am lacking of strength and masculities.....sobs....
but i am very confident that i still can get a wife....although i am not that 'man'...

empty hand

2008-12-07T11:31:00.000-08:00

Don't know why,suddenly i have a strong feeling of holding someone's hand,
although even i also don't know who is that 'someone'.

i just feel that i don't like my hand to be empty,without holding anyone's hand....

I really missed my past when i was holding my ex..hand,
it made me felt very happy and satisfied with my life during those sweet moments,
although it was just a simple action .

i enjoyed the temperature difference of our hands, her hand did warmed my heart a lot,
in those moments i was always thought that nothing could be better than that,
although sometime the sweat that secreted from my hand did affected a bit of the romantic feeling....sobs....hehe.....it sounds funny but my sweat was really quite annoying during those sweet moments.

hope one day the person i am holding by hand will be the person i love and she also loves me.

and hope i don't need to wait too long for that day...

Someone is thinking of you , is just you don't know

2008-12-07T01:52:00.000-08:00

Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

He or she maybe don't really wants to think about you,but by reflex he or she will thinks of you involuntary.

Sometime when we want to forget something or someone, usually the person or the thing that we want to forget will sure remains strongly in our memory,and just can't be forgot.

Therefore when we wana forget something or someone, we should just treat them in a "let it be" way.

Don't try to hate the person,because the person will become more unforgettable instead of go far away from your memory.

Remember when you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

So try and turn around to see the world,maybe you will find the difference.

Enjoy your life with love.....

2008-12-04T08:47:00.000-08:00

Someone in moscow (sad and lonely city),missing of someone...

I can see the first leaf falling.
It's all yellow & nice.
It's so very cold outside.
Like the way I'm feeling inside.
Outside it's now raining.
And tears are falling from my eyes.
Why did it have to happen ? Why did it all have to end ?
I have Your arms around me like fire.But when I open my eyes.
You're gone !

I'm a big big boy !
In a big big world !
It's not a big big thing if You leave me.,
But I do do feel.
That I too too will miss You much!
Miss You much !

2008-12-04T05:33:00.000-08:00

It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday